It's been ages. That was an understatement. I guess it just goes to show how much of a commitmentphobic i am, i can't even stay loyal to a non living-thing!

Loads of schoolwork to be done but here i am, 1:33AM on a Thursday night bawling my eyes out...just because.

You know how sometimes this shitty feeling comes and overwhelms you and you actually don't know why you feel shitty but you just do and it sucks? Tonight is one of those nights.

Doesn't help that lately i've been thinking a whole lot about everything and nothing at once. Yes, it's 2011 and i still do not make sense. Never gonna change.

I don't know how to put it...other than 'i miss my dad'.

Thing is, he hasn't been a dad of late. I would say ever since forever but that's not true, i know my papa can be a dad, he used to be a dad.

Omg you know what? Fuck this shit.

...crying is therapeutic right?!!!

Hahahahahahaha i created a pool of tears on the table, it's pretty amusing.

Note to self: Never listen to Frankie J- Daddy's Little Girl or Good Charlotte- Emotionless in public unless i feel like having a dramatic public breakdown

(#fact: people blog more when they are upset)